I haven't been posting enough...and I am ashamed:( Just another reason to feel less competant, and to belittle myself for NOT doing something that I SHOULD be doing...
It's easy for a perfectionist to fall into that mind set. I have to "be all" "do all", and "have all". Some weeks I deal with this issue better than others. This week is "easy breezy". I don't know how or why I have come upon this mindset, but I am glad for it! I do not care that the family's laundry is about to carry us away, or that I have so much to clean, and soo little time. Instead, I have crawled back into bed after taking my son to school, and watched TV, or gone back to sleep.....I know...! What could possibly keep a MOM from cleaning, scrubbing, wipeing, dusting, laundering, vacuuming, spritzing, and fluffing!Well, I can not take it anymore (for this week). I have had ENOUGH. But even the harshness of my tone is not true this week...it is just acted out, because I know that it is just....I (for this week) do not care! I will do what I can/want to do, or not. I will say what I will, and if it all works out for the better/or worse...so be it. You would think that I am taking some sort of pill, say Prozac....but no. It's just my moods. I wonder what next week will bring? My poor husband and son....they never know what personality will show up to the party....Good for them for hanging on to see what's around the bend. Thank God Men are adventurists!
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Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Monday, July 12, 2010
I Could Do So Much More When I Was Younger
Today is Monday. That means that it is my last day of my 2 days off from my J.O.B. Which means that I have 101 things to do, before I go back to work. On Sundays, my first day off from my J.O.B., I usually spend time with friends and family. And hopefully get some rest in there somewhere. (Reference the Bible and the whole "Honor the Sabbath" thing:)
But Mondays, well they are a different story. It's all hands on deck: Hit the ground runnin': Go Fight Win! Just thinking about it all paralyzes me into inaction, because I don't know where to start. I have the laundry to catch up on, the house to clean (dishes, tubs and toilets, floors, windows, my son's room (Ugg!) There are meals to be made (I try to cook on this day, because I feel guilty that I don't always feel like cooking after work during the week), which leads to more cleaning. My business needs it own dose of attention: Follow up calls to make, motivation calls or emails to my team, and going through the mountain off paper work on my desk. All of this while listening to my youngest son ramble about all the things that are important to him: Video games, cartoons, and "what if aliens ate our pet bunny?" I try to pay attention, but as all mothers know, it is not always easy:) And then there is the grown child in my life, my husband, who demands that I pay attention to him also. Guess what my boss did today, he'll say. And on, and on about what ever else happened to him at work (most of which I do not understand). I also need to get out and talk to people about my product. Where will I go today? What will I say, and how will I say it? Will they like it? Will I get orders? Yes, today is indeed a BUSY day.
A few years ago I would have went through all of this and begged for more...but that was then, this is now. I am typing this blog as an escape from all that is to come. It's the calm before the storm. But, my brain is already sending signals to my body, that say "you are done", "aren't you tired, arms and legs, don't you want to rest", "how about a nap? that would be good". Lord give me strength! I am only 40ish. I can just imagine how pitiful I will be at 50ish! Well, enough procrastinating....look out Monday, here I come! Like a turtle out of the starting gate;)
But Mondays, well they are a different story. It's all hands on deck: Hit the ground runnin': Go Fight Win! Just thinking about it all paralyzes me into inaction, because I don't know where to start. I have the laundry to catch up on, the house to clean (dishes, tubs and toilets, floors, windows, my son's room (Ugg!) There are meals to be made (I try to cook on this day, because I feel guilty that I don't always feel like cooking after work during the week), which leads to more cleaning. My business needs it own dose of attention: Follow up calls to make, motivation calls or emails to my team, and going through the mountain off paper work on my desk. All of this while listening to my youngest son ramble about all the things that are important to him: Video games, cartoons, and "what if aliens ate our pet bunny?" I try to pay attention, but as all mothers know, it is not always easy:) And then there is the grown child in my life, my husband, who demands that I pay attention to him also. Guess what my boss did today, he'll say. And on, and on about what ever else happened to him at work (most of which I do not understand). I also need to get out and talk to people about my product. Where will I go today? What will I say, and how will I say it? Will they like it? Will I get orders? Yes, today is indeed a BUSY day.
A few years ago I would have went through all of this and begged for more...but that was then, this is now. I am typing this blog as an escape from all that is to come. It's the calm before the storm. But, my brain is already sending signals to my body, that say "you are done", "aren't you tired, arms and legs, don't you want to rest", "how about a nap? that would be good". Lord give me strength! I am only 40ish. I can just imagine how pitiful I will be at 50ish! Well, enough procrastinating....look out Monday, here I come! Like a turtle out of the starting gate;)
Sunday, May 23, 2010
All work and no play.....
Well, I have not worked my business, Scentsy, in the past couple of weeks. I just haven't had the time, and/or, the energy. I am realizing though that it's all good....it's ok. I also realize that I like working my business, and I guess that I am resentful of ALL of the OTHER things that I have to do, that don't involve my business. I am resentful that I don't have more ME time...even if that ME time is work. It's working on ME, making my life more fulfilling by; Setting and reaching goals, socializing with other women, building a successful team and helping them realize their goals.
I guess that is a comman complaint of all mothers. Not having enough ME time. But we do all the things for our family that we do, because we love them. And having a happy, healthy, loving family is what we all want. We wouldn't give it up for all the riches in the world. It's just part of being a good woman;)
I guess that is a comman complaint of all mothers. Not having enough ME time. But we do all the things for our family that we do, because we love them. And having a happy, healthy, loving family is what we all want. We wouldn't give it up for all the riches in the world. It's just part of being a good woman;)
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